TIME LOST - TIME GAINED

I have just noted that these blogs commenced on the 4th July - Independence Day.

I am amazed that it is therefore only approximately six weeks since this journey commenced. If it had been indicated that my first offering had been made three or four months ago, that would have seemed reasonable - but six weeks, I find truly amazing. Is this of significance? Well yes to me it is, I am not sure why. A period of time that should be is not. A period of time that apparently has been, doesn't seem to be correct. This has just created a degree of uncertainty for me, that I am currently NOW working through. There is a cloudy confusion at this moment that I am sharing and one that I know will lift at some stage, maybe in seconds, minutes, or hours, I do not know. How do I cope with this, what to do - keep calm enjoy the classical music that is playing, ironically entitled "Classical Chillout". I don't feel chilled out, there is an anxiety re confused time awareness. Sorry this has happened while blogging, but always have to go with the flow in trust that all will be well. The Beatles song "We Can Work It Out" springs to mind. As I carry on writing the significance of what it was that presented this issue is subsiding and although I recall it was about time lost and gained, I am managing to let it dissipate and a tranquility / normality is returning.

The theme of Independence is one I will now focus on, possibly briefly, who knows!!
The significance of independence is, I consider major. To be able to be as independent as possible, is an aim I focus on each day, being constantly reminded by my actions and reactions to people / situations, that like the memory etc, it has started, to ever so slowly ebb away. I will fight and am being lovingly supported by my wife, to retain as much independence as I can, for as long as I can. There are increasingly, more areas of life where I have to, unhappily, admit to not being able to cope with as independently as had always been the case in the past. I know what they are and don't intend to list them!! Why should I?

There are now different daily responsibilities that I hold on to and cherish, relatively minor as they may be compared to the responsibilities and drivers of my former professional life. However, in this life of NOW, they are, as I like to think and as my wife tells me, a significant contribution to our life. They are my daily drivers in to trying to maximise the use of the slowly dying wind that used to billow my sails and enable me to enjoy making the most of sailing close to the wind, both metaphorically and literally, in connection with work and when relaxing sailing.

Independence, self respect and dignity are very closely interlinked. They are interdependent to a large extent and the diminution of one has an automatic knock on effect on the others. Start to lose independence and self respect diminishes. If one's dignity is threatened, whether perceived or actual, then self respect is also at risk.
However, independence is retained at a price. One has to be constantly as focused as possible, so that one does not undertake or fails to remember to undertake, what is reasonably expected of one. This is a concern, when one knows from experience, that certain aspects of failed memory, or mildly unreasonable behaviour, demonstrated in either speech or acts, understandably, undermine the faith others can place in and the degree of independent latitude that should be afforded to you.

IS THIS A COMPLEX STATE ? YES

ARE WE PROBLEM SOLVERS? YES!

WILL WE MAXIMISE THE USE OF OUR RESOURCES TO DEAL WITH THESE ISSUES? YES!

JSAFGA